Roxas - colored

I love him. I don't want to be here. I don't want to do this. But I don't wanna die!
[points if you know where thats from.(i was watching it when i started coloring this :]])]
(([\edit - i've just realized, i usually make axel abusive... i dont know why.....\]))

LINEART = [Please go look at her art, its beauty. need proof of that, all you need to know is that she did this line art with a mouse. JUST a mouse!!! how amazing is that?!] [link]

layers = somewhere from 32 to 35. lol.
time = 3, almost 4 hours. including breaks.
comments to lineart artist - well.... er. . . this is the first thing i've colored with sai. it was a bit difficult, but fun. also, I feel this might have taken a turn the artist didnt want, so . . . im sorry if thats the case. i just.... felt it seemed... right for it? i dont know. sorry. also, i apologize for not asking before coloring. if you would like it removed, just say so.
Self Critique =
the Shading - i hate it. seems terrible. main light was suppose to be from top left.
skin - had trouble with getting the red to look like he was crying.
Bruises & etc. - i hope they look like bruises. there are 3 on the arm [ two that are small, and the one very obvious one.] and one on the neck. and on the back, there are the marks that are suppose to look like they are just healing over. and, i hope that the blood fromth e tattoo looks like blood. i had no clue how to make it look like that.
Colors - had no explanation this time, except for the white/gray on the pants[becauseitsroxasy'know?] and the belt. [red/gray,y'know?]
i hope the tears look okay, as well.
FORGOT - thumb nails. earring shading. fuck. /edit-- ALSO FORGOT, the mouth. and pants. and erasing parts of skin. FUCK. fuck./\

so. i hope you get the picture of what i was thinking.....